Invisibility

One of the worst feelings for me is a lack of appreciation. I associate a lack of appreciation with rejection. There was a time I struggled at work due to feeling unappreciated. I was managing projects but they weren’t projects with high visibility so I felt my work was going unnoticed. I started off on a team with little training but hit the ground running. You would think when an area is being managed and there are no fires or complaints that you would get some form of credit but nope, I was invisible.

Growth and promotion are key values in career and business for me and here I am, stuck. I was applying for jobs and no doors were opening. I had some really great interviews but no call backs. Then I applied for a promotion and that door closed too! At this point, I’m trying not to be angry with God and want to believe in His plan for my life but I’m getting frustrated with how things are going. After checking my emotions following the promotion let down I heard God say, “You don’t need the promotion of man, you only need my approval.” It made me feel okay at the moment but deep down I still wanted man’s approval, I wanted to be visible… I wanted to be seen.

Even though I was feeling frustrated with work I was working on myself and my journey with God. I discovered my design and the purpose of my life. With this revelation, a business was birthed and in that was my promotion. At the time I was not on the track of a business, however, in the months that followed the vision was revealed. So often we are looking for visibility and in turn, we don’t foster the gifts and abilities God naturally gave us. So often we take on roles in the church or at work that don’t fit our design or purpose but we think visibility gives us importance. It feeds our ego. When we look at our human body, we can’t see the brain or the heart however, they are the two most important organs. Matter of fact, the body parts that are seen cannot function without them.

As in 2 Corinthians 4:18, we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal. Don’t get caught up in whether your purpose has a high enough profile. The appendix is an organ whose function is unknown but if it ruptures the outcome can be life threatening. Revere your purpose in the same manner, for failure to discover and fulfill your purpose will cause the lack of fulfillment and purpose to impact your life as an untreated infection. To not know your design and purpose threatens your existence.